Lights being on or off, messes in workspaces (they can be right next to where i'm working, but not right in front of me -- my desk is a disaster, but the area directly in front of me has maybe a snack bowl or glass of water, nothing else), doors/windows being open or shut, shoelaces being tied. Probably more.
2. Why that and not something else?
Honestly, at this point it's just "what hasn't faded due to being impossible to deal with". I had a lot of really strongly OCD tendencies when I was younger, and these are just the ones that stuck. I used to have to count every single footstep I took, making sure the same parts of my feet touched the floor with the same amount of pressure, all the time. So like, thank god I don't do that anymore.
Well, I'm still pretty young, but when I was a preteen it was a LOT worse -- see above, lol. I really thought I had OCD for a long time, so I think that says a lot.
Anger-cry, or just shut down if I can't.
Well, idk. I wish I didn't care so much, but I would still like workspaces to be clear. I wish I didn't care about the others, I guess, because often it makes doing anything productive impossible because all I can think about is how a light is on that shouldn't be or a door is open.
From thefridayfive, slightly late, whoops sorry.
1. Have you come to the conclusion that your parents music (music popular in their time) isn't so bad?
Well, I mean, I kinda hate it, but sometimes I'll like individual songs if I don't hear them while trapped in my parent's car. It's not objectively bad, but like a lot of things, it makes me feel nostalgic in a way that I don't like (since it was the ONLY music i ever listened to until I was about eleven) and also it all sounds the same to me.
2. Is there a song/group/singer you once adored, but don't now?
Hm... well, I guess Fall Out Boy? I don't dislike their music, not at all, but none of their songs are my favourites anymore.
3. Is there a song/group/singer you once despised, but is okay now?
My life got a lot better when I stopped hating One Direction on principle. Some of their songs are fine.
4. Have you ever heard a favorite song and suddenly had a reinterpretation its meaning?
...I don't know? I don't think so?
5. What song would you just as soon never hear again?
I'm Like A Bird by I don't know the artist by memory and don't want to look it up -- Natalie something maybe? I have never despised a song as much as that one, and I have no idea why. At all.
It's not quite Friday yet where I am but ehhhhh. From thefridayfive
1) Do you want to get married?
I mean, maybe? If I make it out of my teenage years as a functional human being, which is kind of up in the air right now.
2) Where would you like to get married?
Probably either outside or somewhere non-traditional (probably not a church, I'm not religious and no one in my family is, but I guess it depends on the person I'm marrying). I think probably not in my home city, or even general area, because I kind of hate it. Maybe by the sea somewhere. I like oceans, from a distance. (although I'm not going to do what a neighbour of mine did when she got married -- had her dad row her in and then come up to the wedding where everyone was waiting, because they didn't check tide charts and got stuck in the sand. which was hilarious and recently during a sea kayaking lesson I used it as a personal example of why tides really do matter.)
3) If you were getting married in a week, who would be in your wedding party?
...my family and some of my school friends, probably, but like, I literally can't get married right now, so. Idk if my school friends will still be my friends when I get married, so idk.
4) What would your wedding colours be?
Probably like... pale pink and teal or something. Definitely pastels, definitely cooler colours other than pink maybe -- blue, green, or pink are definites, not sure about anything else. Maybe gold? I don't know, I've never actually thought about it. I was never a kid who fantasized about my future wedding, which was probably an early indicator of either 1. gay or 2. suicidal ideation.
5) Does marriage mean to you 'til death do us part?'
I mean, I would hope so. I wouldn't marry someone I couldn't see myself spending the rest of my life with, unless it was either for citizenship somewhere or money (does this make me a bad person to admit? probably!), but I don't think I would refuse to get a divorce on the grounds of "it SHOULD be forever". I would like to think that I have the guts to be able to walk away if it really isn't working.
Hot. Sunny. Could be worse, but it's hot enough that I wish I could wear shorts. (I just dyed my hair so I'm wearing my paint jeans. Which are full-length jeans. At least they have holes in them)
Nostalgic? Depressed? Oversensitive? Annoyed? All of those things in varying degrees. Although it really depends where I am. If I'm not at home or in the city, I love this weather.
...autumn, probably? I like layers, I like being able to wear tights, I like not having extreme cold indoors and needing a jacket just for that. And I just love autumn in general. I love winter as well, but autumn edges out ahead just because I won't ever *need* to wear snow boots.
SUPER HOT WEATHER. Thank god we almost never get that here, although this summer is looking likely to be warmer than most because global warming of course. Yeah... I've never been anywhere really really really cold, so cold weather just makes me want to put on a jacket and go sit outside, hopefully in the snow.
...probably here, to be honest, or in the Gulf Islands, which is the same but has the advantage of not being in the city, so there are Trees and Less Concrete.
I finally saw Wonder Woman yesterday!!! I didn't love all of it, and the dialogue felt a little clunky in parts (though I'm really sensitive to that so it's almost definitely a personal problem), but OH GOD, I WAS REALLY EMOTIONAL. Like, I got to the theatre and I was excited and then the movie started and I just grabbed my mom's wrist so hard and was like "OH MY GOD THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING". Like, I didn't grow up idolizing Wonder Woman -- I was remarkably superhero-indifferent as a child, and until I got into Marvel a couple years ago -- but it was a superhero movie about a woman, and even if I hadn't gotten Super Into DC a few months ago, I would have been excited. As is, I was choking down tears for easily the first half of the movie. The second half was... less good, idk. WonderTrev didn't really appeal to me, and the Massive Superhero Fight at the end was exhausting to me (I hate fights like that!!) but the actually movie ending was emotional and enjoyable.
I loved, loved, loved the Amazon fight scenes at the beginning. I know other people have said it before, but a scene with women fighting where they weren't sexualized. Where the camera focused on the fight and not their bodies. It was so unexpectedly emotional, because it's not something I'd even realized was missing. Like, I don't really watch that many superhero movies, even if it's the main genre I watch; but this was so emotional because this is what it could be like, and it's not, but we have this. Ahh. Ahhhhhh.
And, of course, the No Man's Land scene. From all the hype, I thought I would enjoy it more, to be honest. Like, I DID like it -- it just wasn't quite as much of a Moment as I expected. It was really good, though -- it was really damn emotional, too.
Yeah, I really loved Wonder Woman. I really want to go see it again.
And because for some reason I can focus on the WRONG THINGS, I started watching The Handmaid's Tale today. I've seen two episodes so far, and I really like it. It's not totally perfect, and sometimes the excessively long shots where nothing is happening get boring, but I'm pretty sure that's my own attention span as the problem. I really like Alexis Bledel's character -- I'm not all that familiar with her as an actress, but I think she did really well. I can't wait to finish watching it
if I ever do hahaha I hate existing
1. Have you ever been to summer camp?
I went for like... three years in a row, i think, from like ages 10-12? It was a kind-of religious camp in interior BC and it was like four hours away from where I live.
It was pretty fun, though the preachy stuff was a little annoying. Still don't know why my parents sent me there, since my mom is vaguely atheist and my dad is Very Atheist. Yeah, it was pretty fun, I guess.
Oh, man, I don't know, I don't watch a lot of movies.
Never seen it, never really thought about it. The only thing that puts me off from summer camp (and made me stop going) was my social anxiety, since I didn't have friends that could go with me.
1) What was the first recipe or food you learned how to cook?
Probably like... toast. Probably. But for actual recipe? Probably this chili recipe that my family found in a children's cookbook around nine or ten years ago and we've been cooking it practically every week since then. It has five ingredients -- two pounds of roast beef, four cups of salsa (blended), a bit less than a quarter cup of chili powder, and two cans each of kidney beans and chickpeas. And then it just simmers. It's super simple and I could probably cook it in my sleep, plus it's delicious and I'll probably never stop loving it. (There's a note pinned to my fridge with a quote from me, in April 2009: "I will never say 'I hate chili'." It's been eight years and I still haven't.
2) What recipe or food did you cook most recently?
I literally just got home from a five-day camping trip last night, and probably didn't cook a single thing while I was gone (unless salad from the one group meal I did counts). I baked creme brulee (and muffins) the day before I left, though I'm not sure if that counts, since it's probably closer to baking. I think I also made bean salad that day.
3) What recipe or food do you cook most often?
4) What is your favorite recipe?
There's this really good casserole with meatballs, bread, cream cheese, and pasta sauce that I really enjoy making, maybe? Also a couple of salads -- a bean salad with capers, and a chicken-curry-apple salad that I absolutely ADORE.
Well, it's my mom's recipe, but I know how to make it as well and I usually bring it for potlucks. It's a chili dip, with a layer of cream cheese on the bottom and then canned chili, salsa, cheese, etc on top, and then baked. It's always a huge hit and I've never totally understood the appeal -- though I'm a weirdo who doesn't like chunks of veggies so I always blend my salsa, so.
No, I don't think so? Well, I think everyone at my school including me did a short profile for the local... paper/newsletter? I don't know if that counts, since I wrote it and all.
One time I saw Ryan Reynolds at the PNE, maybe. Maybe. It was cool.
I cannot for the life of me think of any actress who looks enough like me. I don't know. It feels like asking which character is most like me in personality or something; I guess most people can answer it, but I have literally no sense of myself as a person, either personality or physically, so I really don't know.
1. What is your current main mode of transportation? e.g. car, bike, subway, walking etc.
I really don't travel all that much, but usually by Skytrain/walking. Sometimes the bus. The ferry, quite a lot.
I would rather be driving, but like, I'd have to actually get my learner's...
If I get a license, yes, I'll start driving. If not... probably more of the same.
4. If time distance and money were not factors how do you prefer to get from point A to point B?
Private bus, flying, or ferry. Pretty much anything that doesn't require you to be in the exact same spot the whole time.
Possibly my flight to Japan? I took a sleeping pill six (of ten) hours in, and didn't fall asleep, so once we landed it was seriously kicking in and I had the worst headache of my life and was lying on the airport floor half-asleep for ages. And then on the next flight (one hour), it was delayed so we were taxiing around for half an hour, and I woke up every. single. time we stopped, so I was just waking and falling asleep for the whole time.
Other than that... I've had some seriously annoying ferry delays. And then two weeks ago there was a fire alarm on my ferry. We were practically docked -- I was going down to the vehicle deck to get off when the alarm went off -- so it wasn't as scary as it could have been, but the crew were all putting on their vests and the speaker was repeating "this is not a drill" and all the passengers had to gather in the forward lounge for a while while they contained the smoke in the engine room. And I was alone. It was... something.
1: How did you name your pets?
It's been ages since I named a pet, and both times they were family pets so it was a democratic process. For my cats, my brother named his Rocky (I don't know why) and I named mine a random French word. She's now drifting in the wind, god rest her soul (she's probably alive). With my dog, a few years later, we all put suggestions -- I suggested Calliope because of Greek myth -- and cut most of them if anyone disliked them, and voted. Calliope won, and we call her Callie now.
2: Poirot or Miss Marpel?
Never read either. Yes, I'm one of those Goddamn Millennials.
3: Do you have a FB account too?
I've had one since I was nine, though the first one got deleted for reasons unknown. I still have my second account, but I don't use it except to log into games and send messages
4: Books - hardcover or paperback?
Physical books? Paperback, for sure, it's so much easier to read. I always feel so anxious reading new hardcovers, and they're generally just harder to manage. But in the end, while I do love physical books, I prefer my kobo (or like. maybe a newer model, but that's neither here nor there) because of the ease of transport, the ability to read fanfiction and not look like a Goddamn Millennial on my phone (and also read them offline) and being able to highlight passages. Though that's a little easier in iBooks on my phone.
5: Mobile(cell phone): Windows/Android or Apple?
Apple, I think. I had an android for my first phone, but since it was my first phone, it was absolutely terrible (two. gigs. of. space. TOTAL.) and it kinda put me off androids.
1) What famous landmarks have you visited?
I don't think I've actually visited any. Uh, I've been to some Olympic buildings in Vancouver, but those probably don't count as famous landmarks.
At this point in my life, my school is on a fucking island, so I travel there and back by ferry every week, for about three hours each way. So I guess I'm pretty used to being in transit. And I've flown on planes a lot, so I'm pretty used to those as well. Though even after all that, I'm really, really bad at packing.
I think I got some cool dolls from Mexico when I was like, eight, but I'm not much of a souvenir person in general, so I don't tend to collect them.
4) What is your fantasy vacation?
Spending a month or two in various parts of Europe, including France, Spain, Portugal, Italy and probably more. I think it would be really stressful, but also really amazing.
5) Would you want to be a space tourist?
If it were relatively safe and pure tourism? Yeah, I think so.
1. Do you like traveling or are you counting the minutes until the transporter is perfected?
There's definitely aspects of travelling I don't like (*flashbacks to that horrific flight to Japan two years ago*) but overall? I actually do like it. If I don't have internet, I basically have to read, or do something productive; I really enjoy that. Especially longer journeys in comfortable-ish settings (buses or airplanes).
2. If you could visit any country in the world right now, where would you go?
Switzerland. I just read an article about what the workforce is like there, and honestly, sign me the fuck up.
3. What is your favorite form of travel?
Airplanes. AIRPLANES. I know, air travel is awful and all, but if it's a relatively nice flight? HELL TO THE YEAH.
4. What is the longest vacation/holiday that you’ve ever been on?
...I think Japan? Which was a little longer than two weeks, I think????? I don't actually remember how long it was. But I'd say that wherever it was, two weeks is probably about the length of my longest vacation.
5. Would you travel for a living?
My dad does it, and honestly, I think I'd hate it. I mean, depends on what I was doing, but I don't really like hotels and I hate packing.
1) What family traditions did your family have, while you were growing up?
I'm realising that this is possibly the worst theme for me, since I've been thinking lately (more in terms of culture) that my family doesn't really have any real traditions. No one is religious and everyone identifies as 100% Canadian, with no real outside influences. I honestly find it kinda depressing, considering how many interesting or cool traditions we COULD have.
2) What new traditions have you established since becoming an adult?
Well, I'm not an adult. So I don't know what I'll do. I've been trying to get more into tarot, so maybe I could start reading tarot daily or weekly?
3) What tradition is most important to you in your current life?
Sigh... again, really nothing.
4) What traditions do you have for the current season (spring or fall, depending on where you live)?
:/ wow I'm getting kinda sad about this. WHY IS MY FAMILY SO INCREDIBLY BORING.
5) What traditions would you like to establish in the future?
Like I mentioned, tarot. I'd like to do smaller things on significant days, in order to commemorate them -- probably mostly historical LGBTQ days. I'd like to buy books and get steak on my birthday whenever possible, and go see this one theatre production every summer once I can't participate myself anymore (this summer is going to be my second-to-last year) and reread certain books/fics at least once per year. And I'd like to continue making myself cry on Valentine's Day -- I think that's my only real tradition, actually, and I didn't even do it this year. (I watch sad scenes from movies or TV shows one after another until the accumulative effect makes me cry) Wow, I'm starting to feel vaguely sad about the future, though that might just be the music I'm listening to. I just discovered this band and their music is EMOTIONAL.
1. What was your favorite past time in high school?
I'm still in high school technically, but I really don't have a pastime? Unless reading way too much fanfiction counts. Maybe choral singing, I think that's potentially "past time-y" enough and I can tell anyone who asks me, something I really can't do with fanfiction.
2. What is your all time favorite board game/card game?
I've never played much of either, but I really love spoons and poker (just for fun). I used to love playing the game of life, but I haven't played it in years. (Oddly, today my mom is clearing out some old board games as part of a "cleaning up the house" initiative and there's board games everywhere.)
3. What is the last movie you saw at the theatre and what did you think of it?
LOGAN. AND I LOVED IT. I'M STILL SO EMOTIONAL.
4. What is something (no matter what kind of mood your in) that makes you happy the moment you do it, see it, or hear it?
Hm... there are probably a handful of fics like this, but I can't think of them offhand. Also, cat pictures. I love cat pictures.
5.Do you believe that crop circles are made by human or alien?
I may be an atheist, but at my core I am still really superstitious and believe in the paranormal/supernatural/etc (as evidenced by my recent foray into tarot). So yeah, I think there's quite possibly an alien explanation.
1. How do you feel about cooking?
I love it, actually, when I have proper ingredients. I probably prefer baking, but I love both. It's just very hard to cook in my house bc I ALWAYS need to go grocery shopping first and it just feels way too difficult, so I just... preheat.
2. How often do you cook a meal (from mostly fresh ingredients, not something ready-assembled that you just heat)?
Uh... I usually make dinner once or twice a week, and for myself I usually make all breakfasts and lunches but only about... half? Maybe? Are actually cooked as opposed to heated? Not totally sure.
3. How many people do you usually cook for, when you cook?
At home, either myself, or for three or for four (if my dad is home). When I'm at school and happen to be on food (like next school week, ahahahahah we still don't have a food plan!) for twelve.
4. Do you have a favourite recipe book or chef?
No, I tend to just google recipes for whatever ingredients I have or what I want to make.
5. Kitchen tools: use the fewest possible or gadgets are your friend?
I like gadgets! I can't buy them, usually, but I do like them. I have a really cool egg yolk extractor but I put it in my hope chest instead of using it.