1. What book frightened you as a young person?
I don't know how young I was when I read it for the first time, but Gone by Michael Grant. The death of a baby in the first few chapters, the animal deaths (I... actually don't remember which book they started in, but maybe not this one), and the fair amount of gore were all bad -- but mostly the scene where a bunch of characters show up who'd had their hands encased in a cement block for weeks. They way their hands were described after the cement was magically disappeared... I don't remember the exact wording anymore but it was TRAUMATIZING.
2. If you had to become a ‘living book (i.e. able to recite the contents of a book cover to cover upon request – reference Fahrenheit 451), what book would it be?
Probably Harry Potter -- the first one, if only one of them. I think it's the only book series where I can open any book to any page and keep reading without a problem.
3. What movie or TV show scared you as a kid?
I never really watched scary stuff, mostly because if someone started playing it I would run away immediately, but I remember accidentally seeing part of this... I thought it was a documentary at the time, but there's no way a person could actually slowly turn into a tree? I'm pretty sure? Anyway that traumatized me. It might have just been a nightmare, though.
4. What movie (scary or otherwise) will you never ever watch?
Pretty much any horror movie, actually. I watched IT in theatres... twice... and I loved it, but that was enough.
5. Do you have any phobias?
Not phobias, but I am pretty terrified of being in deep water. I'm also not fond of bugs under my clothes. If there were some sort of monster that showed your worst fear, to kill you or otherwise, it would become a swarm of hornets inside my clothes, and I would die of fear nearly instantaneously.
1) What is the first song you remember from your childhood?
The Way by Fastball. I think I was like... six or seven? And apparently it was The Whole Family's Favourite Song. I stopped liking it because back then we had a bunch of CDs in the car, which were the only things we listened to while driving, and that song was on one of the CDs, and everyone else loved it and played it over and over, and we drove to visit my dad's family three hours away a ton back then. Basically oversaturation ruined it for me.
2) What is the first music you purchased with your own money?
I feel like it was a Hannah Montana CD. Sometimes I just think about how many CDs I bought when the internet was right there and easy to pirate and just Regret all that money lost.
3) What's a piece of music that you know by heart?
I've been in choirs so long that I probably have a list a mile long. But for songs that I didn't learn in choir, or for singing lessons, or during musical theatre productions as cast or crew, or from Christmas production things with my singing/piano teacher (which, oddly, feel like an entirely different category for some reason), I realized a while ago that I'd memorized No Children by The Mountain Goats. Also Little Talks by Of Monsters And Men, Riptide by Vance Joy, and What'd I Miss from Hamilton.
4) What's a song that makes you turn off the music right away?
Lately, most pop songs.
5) And why?
I feel like it's probably some deep-ingrained superiority over those Basic People who like Popular Music™. Which makes me feel awful. But it doesn't really change the fact that 90% of current pop music (as in, the last two-three years) have made me cringe and immediately turn off the radio.
1. How did you choose your LJ/DW username?
Bluegansey is my go-to url if I can claim it, because it's a sort-of canon url from The Raven Cycle. And I love those books. And bluesey. But bluegansey sounds more aesthetic.
2. What has been your favorite day this year and why?
This whole year? Uhhh maybe the year-end party at my school, when we were all dancing on the beach? That was neato.
3. What is your favorite film you've seen in the past year and why?
Wonder Woman, probably, and It is probably a close second, though I saw it a week ago so I feel like that's kinda biased. Also I don't remember most of the movies I've seen. Oh, also The Princess Bride! I only just watched it this summer.
4. What is your favorite book you've read in the past year and why?
I don't read books enough anymore, oh lord. I had to open up my reading log and wade through the fanfic to find any books. But I really liked Damaged Like Us by Becca and Krista Ritchie, All For The Game by Nora Sakavic, and It by Stephen King.
5. You get to program a half-hour of music videos on MTV. What videos to you pick?
I don't watch music videos very often, or really ever. Whoops. The one I'd choose, though, is Scared by Delta Rae, because it's weird and confusing and an overall really enjoyable watching experience.
1. What's the happiest thing to ever happen to you?
Happy memories? Who is she?
But honestly, probably just starting at my current school. It causes me unbelievable stress sometimes, but it's such a source of joy in my life.
2. What's the saddest thing to ever happen to you?
Piano lessons. I'm completely serious and not going to go into it, probably ever.
3. What's the thing that got you the most angry in your life?
Honestly, my long term-memory with stuff like this is TERRIBLE, but a lot of times in my childhood I had times when I desperately wanted to quit something that I absolutely hated and that was making me miserable, and my parents wouldn't let me because Commitment. (Even for things that it literally didn't matter. like, yes, sure for baseball, it's a team sport, but for *a school trip with my online school with a bunch of people i'd never met*???? really?)
4. What's the most frightening thing to ever happen to you?
The handful of times I've walked home at night and by chance ended up with a man walking behind me have all been utterly terrifying, lol.
5. What's the most unbelievable thing to happen to you in your life?
That time I went to Japan on a choir trip and the most insane coincidence in the universe happened. We visited a high school to learn about life there, joined in on a PE class, and my friend ended up talking to one of the girls. She then went over to my mother -- and me, I was sick so I was sitting with her -- to ask for a picture. My mom strikes up a conversation about where we live.
Turns out said girl was a girl that I'd gone to elementary school with who had moved to Japan a few years before.
Like, it's not actually super surprising that she was in that city, at least -- we went there as a choir because of a sister city thing, and I don't know if that's why she moved there, but it's certainly possible -- but the fact that she went to that high school, was in that PE class, struck up a conversation with my friend, and they went to my mother to ask for her to take a picture?
I still at least 50% believe that it didn't happen. It's fucking insane.
I still have about three shirts from musical theatre camp with CREW written on the back. One is fluorescent yellow, one is covered in partially-dissolved signatures all over the back in many colours (along with badly painted flames and rain on the front -- I am not artistic in that way), and the most recent one isn't TOO bad but still not great. I would never wear any of them in public.
Any kind of trend? Uh... I don't think I've been alive long enough to see any trends actually come and go.
Kind of probably too young for this one. But I used to have plans and goals and now I'm basically wondering if I'm going to graduate high school? Like, maybe? But like, effort?
Probably a fairly solid "not at all".
NEVER. I really wish I'd had one, but I hate getting dirty, so maybe it wouldn't actually be that great.
1. So, how was your summer/winter?
Could've been better, honestly. I really wanted to either go camping or at least go on some day trips to the Gulf Islands -- and actively planned to -- but everyone else in my family was just so busy (and apparently didn't want to cover the cost, despite, y'know, my dad going to Portugal and my mom going to Salt Lake City, by plane, which must have cost a lot more than a ferry trip) that it just didn't end up happening. But some good things happened, I guess.
2. Did you get everything accomplished that you wanted to?
Nah. Well, there's always the rest of the year. I got some things accomplished that I didn't think I would -- I've been writing a lot lately -- but other than that, I didn't do much.
3. What would have made it better?
The aforementioned trips, less smoke (holy god that was absolute HELL I spent a week entirely outside during the worst of it and my breathing just went straight to hell, along with my energy and control over my temper), more learning skills that I wanted to do.
4. What would you have like to be able to do over?
Honestly, I don't want to relive much of this, and the only things I can think of that were memorable went fine enough that I wouldn't want to mess them up. Yeah, I know this is a rhetorical question, but... yeah. Nothing.
5. Was it hot/cold enough for you?
It was entirely too goddamn fucking hot.
Lights being on or off, messes in workspaces (they can be right next to where i'm working, but not right in front of me -- my desk is a disaster, but the area directly in front of me has maybe a snack bowl or glass of water, nothing else), doors/windows being open or shut, shoelaces being tied. Probably more.
2. Why that and not something else?
Honestly, at this point it's just "what hasn't faded due to being impossible to deal with". I had a lot of really strongly OCD tendencies when I was younger, and these are just the ones that stuck. I used to have to count every single footstep I took, making sure the same parts of my feet touched the floor with the same amount of pressure, all the time. So like, thank god I don't do that anymore.
Well, I'm still pretty young, but when I was a preteen it was a LOT worse -- see above, lol. I really thought I had OCD for a long time, so I think that says a lot.
Anger-cry, or just shut down if I can't.
Well, idk. I wish I didn't care so much, but I would still like workspaces to be clear. I wish I didn't care about the others, I guess, because often it makes doing anything productive impossible because all I can think about is how a light is on that shouldn't be or a door is open.
From thefridayfive, slightly late, whoops sorry.
1. Have you come to the conclusion that your parents music (music popular in their time) isn't so bad?
Well, I mean, I kinda hate it, but sometimes I'll like individual songs if I don't hear them while trapped in my parent's car. It's not objectively bad, but like a lot of things, it makes me feel nostalgic in a way that I don't like (since it was the ONLY music i ever listened to until I was about eleven) and also it all sounds the same to me.
2. Is there a song/group/singer you once adored, but don't now?
Hm... well, I guess Fall Out Boy? I don't dislike their music, not at all, but none of their songs are my favourites anymore.
3. Is there a song/group/singer you once despised, but is okay now?
My life got a lot better when I stopped hating One Direction on principle. Some of their songs are fine.
4. Have you ever heard a favorite song and suddenly had a reinterpretation its meaning?
...I don't know? I don't think so?
5. What song would you just as soon never hear again?
I'm Like A Bird by I don't know the artist by memory and don't want to look it up -- Natalie something maybe? I have never despised a song as much as that one, and I have no idea why. At all.
It's not quite Friday yet where I am but ehhhhh. From thefridayfive
1) Do you want to get married?
I mean, maybe? If I make it out of my teenage years as a functional human being, which is kind of up in the air right now.
2) Where would you like to get married?
Probably either outside or somewhere non-traditional (probably not a church, I'm not religious and no one in my family is, but I guess it depends on the person I'm marrying). I think probably not in my home city, or even general area, because I kind of hate it. Maybe by the sea somewhere. I like oceans, from a distance. (although I'm not going to do what a neighbour of mine did when she got married -- had her dad row her in and then come up to the wedding where everyone was waiting, because they didn't check tide charts and got stuck in the sand. which was hilarious and recently during a sea kayaking lesson I used it as a personal example of why tides really do matter.)
3) If you were getting married in a week, who would be in your wedding party?
...my family and some of my school friends, probably, but like, I literally can't get married right now, so. Idk if my school friends will still be my friends when I get married, so idk.
4) What would your wedding colours be?
Probably like... pale pink and teal or something. Definitely pastels, definitely cooler colours other than pink maybe -- blue, green, or pink are definites, not sure about anything else. Maybe gold? I don't know, I've never actually thought about it. I was never a kid who fantasized about my future wedding, which was probably an early indicator of either 1. gay or 2. suicidal ideation.
5) Does marriage mean to you 'til death do us part?'
I mean, I would hope so. I wouldn't marry someone I couldn't see myself spending the rest of my life with, unless it was either for citizenship somewhere or money (does this make me a bad person to admit? probably!), but I don't think I would refuse to get a divorce on the grounds of "it SHOULD be forever". I would like to think that I have the guts to be able to walk away if it really isn't working.
Hot. Sunny. Could be worse, but it's hot enough that I wish I could wear shorts. (I just dyed my hair so I'm wearing my paint jeans. Which are full-length jeans. At least they have holes in them)
Nostalgic? Depressed? Oversensitive? Annoyed? All of those things in varying degrees. Although it really depends where I am. If I'm not at home or in the city, I love this weather.
...autumn, probably? I like layers, I like being able to wear tights, I like not having extreme cold indoors and needing a jacket just for that. And I just love autumn in general. I love winter as well, but autumn edges out ahead just because I won't ever *need* to wear snow boots.
SUPER HOT WEATHER. Thank god we almost never get that here, although this summer is looking likely to be warmer than most because global warming of course. Yeah... I've never been anywhere really really really cold, so cold weather just makes me want to put on a jacket and go sit outside, hopefully in the snow.
...probably here, to be honest, or in the Gulf Islands, which is the same but has the advantage of not being in the city, so there are Trees and Less Concrete.
I finally saw Wonder Woman yesterday!!! I didn't love all of it, and the dialogue felt a little clunky in parts (though I'm really sensitive to that so it's almost definitely a personal problem), but OH GOD, I WAS REALLY EMOTIONAL. Like, I got to the theatre and I was excited and then the movie started and I just grabbed my mom's wrist so hard and was like "OH MY GOD THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING". Like, I didn't grow up idolizing Wonder Woman -- I was remarkably superhero-indifferent as a child, and until I got into Marvel a couple years ago -- but it was a superhero movie about a woman, and even if I hadn't gotten Super Into DC a few months ago, I would have been excited. As is, I was choking down tears for easily the first half of the movie. The second half was... less good, idk. WonderTrev didn't really appeal to me, and the Massive Superhero Fight at the end was exhausting to me (I hate fights like that!!) but the actually movie ending was emotional and enjoyable.
I loved, loved, loved the Amazon fight scenes at the beginning. I know other people have said it before, but a scene with women fighting where they weren't sexualized. Where the camera focused on the fight and not their bodies. It was so unexpectedly emotional, because it's not something I'd even realized was missing. Like, I don't really watch that many superhero movies, even if it's the main genre I watch; but this was so emotional because this is what it could be like, and it's not, but we have this. Ahh. Ahhhhhh.
And, of course, the No Man's Land scene. From all the hype, I thought I would enjoy it more, to be honest. Like, I DID like it -- it just wasn't quite as much of a Moment as I expected. It was really good, though -- it was really damn emotional, too.
Yeah, I really loved Wonder Woman. I really want to go see it again.
And because for some reason I can focus on the WRONG THINGS, I started watching The Handmaid's Tale today. I've seen two episodes so far, and I really like it. It's not totally perfect, and sometimes the excessively long shots where nothing is happening get boring, but I'm pretty sure that's my own attention span as the problem. I really like Alexis Bledel's character -- I'm not all that familiar with her as an actress, but I think she did really well. I can't wait to finish watching it
if I ever do hahaha I hate existing
1. Have you ever been to summer camp?
I went for like... three years in a row, i think, from like ages 10-12? It was a kind-of religious camp in interior BC and it was like four hours away from where I live.
It was pretty fun, though the preachy stuff was a little annoying. Still don't know why my parents sent me there, since my mom is vaguely atheist and my dad is Very Atheist. Yeah, it was pretty fun, I guess.
Oh, man, I don't know, I don't watch a lot of movies.
Never seen it, never really thought about it. The only thing that puts me off from summer camp (and made me stop going) was my social anxiety, since I didn't have friends that could go with me.
1) What was the first recipe or food you learned how to cook?
Probably like... toast. Probably. But for actual recipe? Probably this chili recipe that my family found in a children's cookbook around nine or ten years ago and we've been cooking it practically every week since then. It has five ingredients -- two pounds of roast beef, four cups of salsa (blended), a bit less than a quarter cup of chili powder, and two cans each of kidney beans and chickpeas. And then it just simmers. It's super simple and I could probably cook it in my sleep, plus it's delicious and I'll probably never stop loving it. (There's a note pinned to my fridge with a quote from me, in April 2009: "I will never say 'I hate chili'." It's been eight years and I still haven't.
2) What recipe or food did you cook most recently?
I literally just got home from a five-day camping trip last night, and probably didn't cook a single thing while I was gone (unless salad from the one group meal I did counts). I baked creme brulee (and muffins) the day before I left, though I'm not sure if that counts, since it's probably closer to baking. I think I also made bean salad that day.
3) What recipe or food do you cook most often?
4) What is your favorite recipe?
There's this really good casserole with meatballs, bread, cream cheese, and pasta sauce that I really enjoy making, maybe? Also a couple of salads -- a bean salad with capers, and a chicken-curry-apple salad that I absolutely ADORE.
Well, it's my mom's recipe, but I know how to make it as well and I usually bring it for potlucks. It's a chili dip, with a layer of cream cheese on the bottom and then canned chili, salsa, cheese, etc on top, and then baked. It's always a huge hit and I've never totally understood the appeal -- though I'm a weirdo who doesn't like chunks of veggies so I always blend my salsa, so.
No, I don't think so? Well, I think everyone at my school including me did a short profile for the local... paper/newsletter? I don't know if that counts, since I wrote it and all.
One time I saw Ryan Reynolds at the PNE, maybe. Maybe. It was cool.
I cannot for the life of me think of any actress who looks enough like me. I don't know. It feels like asking which character is most like me in personality or something; I guess most people can answer it, but I have literally no sense of myself as a person, either personality or physically, so I really don't know.
1. What is your current main mode of transportation? e.g. car, bike, subway, walking etc.
I really don't travel all that much, but usually by Skytrain/walking. Sometimes the bus. The ferry, quite a lot.
I would rather be driving, but like, I'd have to actually get my learner's...
If I get a license, yes, I'll start driving. If not... probably more of the same.
4. If time distance and money were not factors how do you prefer to get from point A to point B?
Private bus, flying, or ferry. Pretty much anything that doesn't require you to be in the exact same spot the whole time.
Possibly my flight to Japan? I took a sleeping pill six (of ten) hours in, and didn't fall asleep, so once we landed it was seriously kicking in and I had the worst headache of my life and was lying on the airport floor half-asleep for ages. And then on the next flight (one hour), it was delayed so we were taxiing around for half an hour, and I woke up every. single. time we stopped, so I was just waking and falling asleep for the whole time.
Other than that... I've had some seriously annoying ferry delays. And then two weeks ago there was a fire alarm on my ferry. We were practically docked -- I was going down to the vehicle deck to get off when the alarm went off -- so it wasn't as scary as it could have been, but the crew were all putting on their vests and the speaker was repeating "this is not a drill" and all the passengers had to gather in the forward lounge for a while while they contained the smoke in the engine room. And I was alone. It was... something.
1: How did you name your pets?
It's been ages since I named a pet, and both times they were family pets so it was a democratic process. For my cats, my brother named his Rocky (I don't know why) and I named mine a random French word. She's now drifting in the wind, god rest her soul (she's probably alive). With my dog, a few years later, we all put suggestions -- I suggested Calliope because of Greek myth -- and cut most of them if anyone disliked them, and voted. Calliope won, and we call her Callie now.
2: Poirot or Miss Marpel?
Never read either. Yes, I'm one of those Goddamn Millennials.
3: Do you have a FB account too?
I've had one since I was nine, though the first one got deleted for reasons unknown. I still have my second account, but I don't use it except to log into games and send messages
4: Books - hardcover or paperback?
Physical books? Paperback, for sure, it's so much easier to read. I always feel so anxious reading new hardcovers, and they're generally just harder to manage. But in the end, while I do love physical books, I prefer my kobo (or like. maybe a newer model, but that's neither here nor there) because of the ease of transport, the ability to read fanfiction and not look like a Goddamn Millennial on my phone (and also read them offline) and being able to highlight passages. Though that's a little easier in iBooks on my phone.
5: Mobile(cell phone): Windows/Android or Apple?
Apple, I think. I had an android for my first phone, but since it was my first phone, it was absolutely terrible (two. gigs. of. space. TOTAL.) and it kinda put me off androids.