1. What's the happiest thing to ever happen to you?
Happy memories? Who is she?
But honestly, probably just starting at my current school. It causes me unbelievable stress sometimes, but it's such a source of joy in my life.
2. What's the saddest thing to ever happen to you?
Piano lessons. I'm completely serious and not going to go into it, probably ever.
3. What's the thing that got you the most angry in your life?
Honestly, my long term-memory with stuff like this is TERRIBLE, but a lot of times in my childhood I had times when I desperately wanted to quit something that I absolutely hated and that was making me miserable, and my parents wouldn't let me because Commitment. (Even for things that it literally didn't matter. like, yes, sure for baseball, it's a team sport, but for *a school trip with my online school with a bunch of people i'd never met*???? really?)
4. What's the most frightening thing to ever happen to you?
The handful of times I've walked home at night and by chance ended up with a man walking behind me have all been utterly terrifying, lol.
5. What's the most unbelievable thing to happen to you in your life?
That time I went to Japan on a choir trip and the most insane coincidence in the universe happened. We visited a high school to learn about life there, joined in on a PE class, and my friend ended up talking to one of the girls. She then went over to my mother -- and me, I was sick so I was sitting with her -- to ask for a picture. My mom strikes up a conversation about where we live.
Turns out said girl was a girl that I'd gone to elementary school with who had moved to Japan a few years before.
Like, it's not actually super surprising that she was in that city, at least -- we went there as a choir because of a sister city thing, and I don't know if that's why she moved there, but it's certainly possible -- but the fact that she went to that high school, was in that PE class, struck up a conversation with my friend, and they went to my mother to ask for her to take a picture?
I still at least 50% believe that it didn't happen. It's fucking insane.
1. So, how was your summer/winter?
Could've been better, honestly. I really wanted to either go camping or at least go on some day trips to the Gulf Islands -- and actively planned to -- but everyone else in my family was just so busy (and apparently didn't want to cover the cost, despite, y'know, my dad going to Portugal and my mom going to Salt Lake City, by plane, which must have cost a lot more than a ferry trip) that it just didn't end up happening. But some good things happened, I guess.
2. Did you get everything accomplished that you wanted to?
Nah. Well, there's always the rest of the year. I got some things accomplished that I didn't think I would -- I've been writing a lot lately -- but other than that, I didn't do much.
3. What would have made it better?
The aforementioned trips, less smoke (holy god that was absolute HELL I spent a week entirely outside during the worst of it and my breathing just went straight to hell, along with my energy and control over my temper), more learning skills that I wanted to do.
4. What would you have like to be able to do over?
Honestly, I don't want to relive much of this, and the only things I can think of that were memorable went fine enough that I wouldn't want to mess them up. Yeah, I know this is a rhetorical question, but... yeah. Nothing.
5. Was it hot/cold enough for you?
It was entirely too goddamn fucking hot.
1) What family traditions did your family have, while you were growing up?
I'm realising that this is possibly the worst theme for me, since I've been thinking lately (more in terms of culture) that my family doesn't really have any real traditions. No one is religious and everyone identifies as 100% Canadian, with no real outside influences. I honestly find it kinda depressing, considering how many interesting or cool traditions we COULD have.
2) What new traditions have you established since becoming an adult?
Well, I'm not an adult. So I don't know what I'll do. I've been trying to get more into tarot, so maybe I could start reading tarot daily or weekly?
3) What tradition is most important to you in your current life?
Sigh... again, really nothing.
4) What traditions do you have for the current season (spring or fall, depending on where you live)?
:/ wow I'm getting kinda sad about this. WHY IS MY FAMILY SO INCREDIBLY BORING.
5) What traditions would you like to establish in the future?
Like I mentioned, tarot. I'd like to do smaller things on significant days, in order to commemorate them -- probably mostly historical LGBTQ days. I'd like to buy books and get steak on my birthday whenever possible, and go see this one theatre production every summer once I can't participate myself anymore (this summer is going to be my second-to-last year) and reread certain books/fics at least once per year. And I'd like to continue making myself cry on Valentine's Day -- I think that's my only real tradition, actually, and I didn't even do it this year. (I watch sad scenes from movies or TV shows one after another until the accumulative effect makes me cry) Wow, I'm starting to feel vaguely sad about the future, though that might just be the music I'm listening to. I just discovered this band and their music is EMOTIONAL.
1. How do you feel about cooking?
I love it, actually, when I have proper ingredients. I probably prefer baking, but I love both. It's just very hard to cook in my house bc I ALWAYS need to go grocery shopping first and it just feels way too difficult, so I just... preheat.
2. How often do you cook a meal (from mostly fresh ingredients, not something ready-assembled that you just heat)?
Uh... I usually make dinner once or twice a week, and for myself I usually make all breakfasts and lunches but only about... half? Maybe? Are actually cooked as opposed to heated? Not totally sure.
3. How many people do you usually cook for, when you cook?
At home, either myself, or for three or for four (if my dad is home). When I'm at school and happen to be on food (like next school week, ahahahahah we still don't have a food plan!) for twelve.
4. Do you have a favourite recipe book or chef?
No, I tend to just google recipes for whatever ingredients I have or what I want to make.
5. Kitchen tools: use the fewest possible or gadgets are your friend?
I like gadgets! I can't buy them, usually, but I do like them. I have a really cool egg yolk extractor but I put it in my hope chest instead of using it.
So. I know probably no one ever reads my journal, because I basically use it as a diary, so I've decided to... not do that. I've decided I'm going to lock diary entries and try to make an effort to post actual interesting things about fandoms I'm in, so. There's that. (the locking was basically just because I got to a point where I want to talk about specific personal things that would give away my location/identity, and instead of talking around them I decided to lock posts overall). Older posts are staying up, I might edit some or lock some really personal ones but other than that. I might still post personal stuff (probably will) just not tedious diary entries every. single. day.
ETA, Sep 14/17: officially locked all older entries. FRESH SLATE.
I saw this? Figured I might as well, even if I'm a little late.
1. Your main fandom of the year?
I think probably Star Wars -- I got into it for the first time in my life (somehow) just over a year ago now, and for about eight months it was my singular obsession. Around August it was replaced with DC, but I think this year, overall, was much more of a SW year.
2. Your favorite film watched this year?
Oh... I don't know, hmm. Batman: Under The Red Hood is one of my new favourite movies, I think, and Watchmen, Batman v Superman, and Rogue One are all up there. I don't tend to watch a lot of movies, or remember the ones I watch, so I don't know for sure.
3. Your favorite book read this year?
I read... so much fic this year, and so few books. But I think... Afterworlds by Scott Westerfeld (unexpected sapphic relationship!), Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo, or A New Dawn by John Jackson Miller.
4. Your favorite TV show of the year?
Young Justice, probably, which I just watched this year. Annnddddd Star Wars Rebels, which I'm still an episode behind on... whoops.
5. Your favorite online fandom community of the year?
Probably Star Wars? I'd say DC but the discourse has absolutely terrified me to the point where I will not say anything I ship, at all, and despite meeting some really lovely people, the fandom as a whole has fucked me up. Like, so badly.
6. Your best new fandom discovery of the year?
I... don't really understand the question.
7. Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year?
Uh. Probably The 100, back in the beginning of the year... *ugly laughter*. God, that was fucking brutal. I've never been so badly burned by a show before, and Lexa's death felt like a personal betrayal in so many ways. And I'm saying this as someone who barely ships Clexa -- I mean, I do, but it's not my OTP, I can't imagine how that must have felt for people who really, really loved the ship. As is, it made me suicidal for a week and I sort of gave up hope for WLW representation in TV.
8. Your TV boyfriend of the year?
...TV? Must it be?
If it must, probably Dick Grayson from Young Justice. I know it's animated. Still.
9. Your TV girlfriend of the year?
ISABELLE LIGHTWOOD. I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL.
10. Your biggest squee moment of the year?
MALEC KISS. MALEC KISS MALEC KISS MALEC KISS. I CRIED SO MUCH.
11. The most missed of your old fandoms?
Eh... when I'm doing single-minded focus on one fandom, it's hard to actually miss other fandoms. But I kinda missed Doctor Who, since no episodes and it got taken off Netflix so I can't rewatch. And I kinda miss Teen Wolf, but it's there, I just... don't care anymore. It's that single-minded obsession, and also depression. It's so hard to care about anything.
12. The fandom you haven't tried yet, but want to?
I lowkey want to get into Yuri On Ice, since I've heard so many good things, but I don't watch anime usually, and I'm a little worried that I'll lose my DC fixation before I can finish all the fics I have to read later. Not the best reason, maybe, but... it happened with SW, I was in the middle of things and lost interest when DC happened, so.
13. Your biggest fan anticipations for the New Year?
I've never done this before, but hey, I have some extra time and I'm way too awake for almost 2am, so why not, right? thefridayfive
1. What is your favorite 'food' holiday?
Probably Thanksgiving? But as a Canadian, it's in October, so that was last month for me.
2. Do you prefer ham or turkey (or tofu turkey)?
TURKEY. I don't dislike ham (I know someone who literally never eats it -- not for religious reasons -- which I find really weird, but anyway) but turkey is so much better if it's done well.
3. Do you anticipate or dread seeing your relatives for the holidays?
Depends on the relatives? We usually go see my aunt on my mom's side since they live within day-trip driving distance (the others live in the Interior, or interior BC for non-BC people) and it's usually fine, though this Thanksgiving got a little... weird... and I'm sort of glad my dad wasn't there because it would have become a huge fight, I think. The relatives on my dad's side are... okay... though I feel a little weird about being around them, since they're all small-town people (not super small town, but...) and I'm, well, extremely bisexual. Although the only one who reacted to me coming out as bi on facebook (my dad's sister) was cool with it, but still.
4. When do you start listening to Christmas carols (for real, you can tell us)?
This year I started on October 31st after the last trick or treaters were gone because for some reason I am REALLY feeling the holiday spirit this year. Usually the beginning of December.
5. How are you feeling right now with regards to the upcoming holiday season?
I, um, spend a lot of time on twitter and tumblr. I have weird and ever-changing interests and fandoms. I write a lot but don't post a lot of it. I have anxiety, depression, and probably OCD (not diagnosed) and so I'm a little stressed all the time. I sleep at weird hours and I'm homeschooled so social interaction is a myth to me. I sing in a choir and enjoy musical theatre, I love snow and forests and stars, and my cat is my favourite person in the world.
Hopefully I'll figure out how to use this better at a time that's not one in the morning, so I'll just cut myself off now.